Dealing with depression and all that, this is exactly how I feel almost three times a week. This just can't be how the rest of my life will be like. I've gone back to eating when I feel sad or upset because nothing else works. Working out helps, but only once you're through. I wanted something that made me feel better the whole time, which is what food does. Especially excellent food. But then I just feel like shit when people ask "Oh, have you lost weight?! You look so good!" No, I haven't, and are you saying I looked terrible before? There has to be another way to make myself feel better. There has to be. Every time I get depressed, I can't just pop a couple klonopin and make myself leftovers. Because while it works temporarily, I hate myself even more in the long run.
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